My Transgressors

There was some scripture I came across while doing Kay Arthur's: Lord, Where are You When Bad Things Happen? bible study. It spoke to God being in complete control of our lives - even that bad parts. That no one can harm us with his permission. I have searched for the specific verse & can't come up with it, If anyone knows please tell me! Otherwise I may be up for days trying to find it.

This particular verse came to mind while I was talking with some friends about a time I was violated. It was a personal violation that became a public one because of the gossipy lips of a fellow "Christian". Unfortunately for me there were consequences in my life from someone else's actions. Knowing that I had behaved correctly, this really urked me - to be wronged in this way. Especially when it was an attack on my good name.

I have forgiven my transgressors. Yet I am still struggling to deal with the consequences of their actions. It seems so wrong for me to pay for such a long time for handling a difficult situation with grace and dignity at every turn. I do have an inkling to ask someone in the middle of it all why it is still an issue, but I also just don't want to go there.

So I am trying to see how, even now that I am so far removed from the cause of harm, how God is using it for my good. And I can. I can see good things  that have come out of me being forced down this road injustly. 

Maybe I am wondering if it is worth it, if the damage will ever be undone.